Nuclear Fusion

It’s been about 3 months since my last post and same amount of time since I began a new job at Jameson. Monday through Thursday I’m part of the executive staff- mainly agent relations. Fridays I’m independent and Jameson has given me the opportunity to promote my company within. Acclimating into a corporate environment with an entrepreneurial spirit has been trying at times and repressing of my self-expression, but at the end of the day I really can’t help myself :-)

Anyway, my inspiration for today’s post is a result of S.A.D. Also known as Seasonal Affective Disorder…winter depression. My super powers were depleted by mid January and a long weekend back in Sunny San Diego last month managed to restore my Joie de vivre with vigor and oomf* that lasted for a good 3 weeks… until today. Not only was Ms. Sunshine out all day BUT when I looked outside and realized that it was 5p and still bright, I sprung up from my desk with immense joy and shared it out loud. Summer dresses and strappy heels just dancing in my head!

You see, it took me three years of living in San Diego to finally accept the people. I used to question their sincerity because they seemed way too happy and eager to hug you upon meeting you.  Sweetheart, immerse yourself in 365 days of sunshine, beach, and waves and I’m sure you’ll come across as the most insincere cat on the block. Meeeooow! I constantly hold myself back from squeezing the S.A.D. out of these mid-western folk in hopes that it will knock the S.A.D. out of me! My theory goes back to the basic unit of matter, the Atom. I won’t go into quantum mechanics so here goes my brief translation. An atom is a cloud of negative energy that encapsulates a positively charged center- otherwise known as the nucleus. It's ME in cold, gloomy Chicago! But not just me, it's also the frowning suit sitting next to me on the LaSalle bus reading his Wall Street Journal as well. I started developing an intense desire to hug the attitude out of him but, instead I created the visual in my head in hopes that he would be affected through osmosis. Nuclear fusion baby! Seriously, such a gorgeous creature and a shame that he isn’t smiling.

This brings me to another inspiration… beautiful people! Jameson is nothing but this and our Realtors can be visual muses. One of my favorite quotes is from Michael Rapaport in the 1996 flick, Beautiful Girls in which he’s explaining his fanatic display of super models on his wall. “A beautiful girl can make you dizzy, like you've been drinking Jack and Coke all morning. She can make you feel high; full of the single greatest commodity known to man: promise. Promise of a better day. Promise of a greater hope. Promise of a new tomorrow. This particular aura can be found in the gait of a beautiful girl. In her smile and in her soul.. and the way she makes every rotten little thing about life seem like it's going to be okay…hope dancing in stiletto heals…”

Beautiful men can also quench a S.A.D. girl’s day just the same. His Canali cologne, his emanating confidence and cool stride, his smooth glowing skin, his eloquent speech, or his sensual smile at this morning’s event because he saw my familiar face.

My One Year Anniversary!

Writer’s block again? NOPE. I’ve just been extremely busy with getting my business going and needed to work through a couple of emotional phunks.

I have been in this city for a year now and feel very settled in. Recently I was asked by a new acquaintance if I had made any friends since I moved and the immense smile that spilled onto my face caused me to reflect on the tight group of loving friends that I have in Chicago. I feel very blessed to have attracted the cream of Chicago’s society. I want to take this moment to acknowledge an amazing individual, my dear friend, Adam McLain. Adam was and is a powerful instrument, not only in my life but everyone else that knows him. He is a gateway to the cream of inspiring like-minded individuals that live in this city. His positive, loving character is so contagious that you want to be around his energy all the time.

My business is finally taking flight and I hired my first two employees a couple of weeks ago. It’s not easy to pick up and leave a west coast lifestyle, especially the cream of San Diego and Puerto Vallarta but God- it’s REALLY EXCITING to see what tomorrow brings. It can be a very hard and sorrowful day OR it can be the best day of YOUR Life! I would have never imagined 18 months ago that I would be A) living on Lake Shore Drive and B) owning my own company. More importantly, I would have NEVER, in a million years, imagined that it would take the loss of the greatest love of my life to have such an extraordinary life. So many ask why the hell would I leave San Diego and my work in Puerto Vallarta to start all over in Chicago? My youngest brother Randy of eighteen years old committed suicide by a gunshot wound to his head on August 25th 2008 around 1p. The day of his funeral I offered my Mother to do her hair and she said she hadn’t washed it since Randy’s death. I stepped into the shower with my Mother and washed her hair. Five minutes later my nephew Noah climbs into the shower with us butt-naked and asks that I wash his hair too. That was the moment I decided to move back home after eleven years. I don’t want to miss the next opportunity to wash my loved one’s hair.

I miss my brother so very, very much and I feel extremely blessed to be his sister, to be my father and mother’s daughter, to be an aunt… to be your friend. Thank you and MAKE IT A GREAT DAY! It was created just for you :-)

p.s. To my friends in San Diego & Puerto Vallarta, I miss and love you all. Thank you for CONSTANTLY being in contact and for all the special trips many of you have taken to Chicago to be with me. I will visit you soon when the winter has settled in.